Not the normal blog

Ever have one of those days where you just arent youreslf and you just want to complain. Or wallow in the yucky feeling.  How it is for me today.............. 

Valentines day is coming up fast and i have not been motivated to do a thing =(   My daughter's school is celibrating tomorroww and ALL day i keep saying that im gonna get stuff together for Gia to make cards.  Yet it is 7pm and i still have not done a thing.  Maybe ill start it tongiht and just let Gia put on stickers in the morning.  Sooo not motivated!

What happend!?!?!  i used to be so into this stuff! Always had something to do with Gia, some type of craft and we would have such a great time. I even hosted craft playdates =P

I took MANY photos of the things we made together. It did put a smile on my face looking through them but then the question remainds What happend!?!?!?  Why have a lost that nitch, the drive to create with Gia... 
Look how cute she is, how into it she is and i obviously loved it since i took sooo many pictures. (Too many to share but here are a bunch) This was before Nadia was born, gia had to have been 2yrs+. 

 i guess im looking for the OK! i dont have to do everything! AND i have 2 girls now, not 1! Although i have followed blogs where they do soo many crafts and have like 10 kids =O  how do they do it!!?!!??!

The camera has become such a part of me, more now that im learning new things.I cant wait to try them out.   maybe ive taken my creativity away from crafts and just poured  it into photography?

Am i being to hard on myself?  (ive heard i have been)

I wish i could be wonder women and have the Power to do everything..... doing thngs with my girls, craft, art, ABC, 123's ect. cleaning the house, cooking dinner, going/hosting to playdates, MNO/I, reading blogs,  ALL while learning photography and possibly growing a business?!?!   Just doesn't feel possible right now!

Sorry for the yuckyness.. just one of those days =P