Passing time....

Its 1pm and i got Nadia down for a nap and gia watching tv! now for some ME time..

there is just one thing i cant seem to get out of my mind. Ive been thinking all morning, now into the afternoon, about the SOAR scholarship in the hopes that I win. Im emagining how i would react, of course its more like receiving a crown and flowers and a whole bunch of people cheering. LMAO! But im not the girly type. im more the T-shirt jean kinda girl. Soo the crown wouldnt really look so good. eh, maybe get a trophy in a shape of a camera??? or or, ........ ok ill stop =P
i dont know why i do this to myself, there is no way i could possibly win. There are so many more deserving women but still find myself checking the computer, in hopes....

I know that we are all winners no matter who gets picked and that we will ALL SOAR. But so hard to tell myself that. Always needing validation that im GOOD! so silly! there are people out there who have validated it but for some reason their voices are not strong enough. (maybe i need hearing aids?)

I did see MeRa say the announcement will be in a few hours but we are leaving to go get our hair cuts around 2. (lookin for a change, goin short!) So im gonna miss it. Unless.... maybe i can text my husband to check... and text me who won!

any way.. im just trying to pass some time. it is now to get ready to get a new "look" =P Good luck to all the SOAR applicants!

xoxo